I tell you how I feel, but you don’t care.
I say tell me the truth, but you don’t dare.
You say love is a hell you cannot bare.
And I say gimme mine back and then go there - for all I care.

I got my feet on the ground and I don’t go to sleep to dream.
You got your head in the clouds and you’re not at all what you seem.
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways.
So don’t forget what I told you, don’t come around, I got my own hell to raise.

I have never been insulted in all my life.
I could swallow the seas to wash down all this pride.
First you run like a fool just to be at my side.
And now you run like a fool, but you just run to hide, and I can’t abide.

Don’t make it a big deal, don’t be so sensitive.
We’re not playing a game anymore, you don’t have to be so defensive.
Don’t you plead me your case, don’t bother to explain.
Don’t even show me your face, ’cuz it’s a crying shame.
Just go back to the rock from under which you came.
Take the sorrow you gave and all the stakes you claim -
And don’t forget the blame.
I got my feet on the ground and I don’t go to sleep to dream.
You got this head in the clouds and you’re not at all what you seem.
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways.
So don’t forget what I told you, don’t come around, I got my own hell to raise.

 


THERE'S NO EASY WAY
 -James Ingram


I held her close to me
Coz I know she breaks so easily
And then I told her
Though I knew no matter how I tried to console her
Then she'd do the best she could
But there are times the best is no damn good
And no matter how you try to be kind
There's always still a part of you you'll leave behind
When they fall apart
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart.

I lied and told her she'll be fine
Though we both knew it was just a lie
I had to do it
Coz I had said anything to help me get through it.
And she reached out for my hand
And her simple touch was more than I could stand
And I had to turn away coz I knew
All the hurt that she was feeling, I was feeling too
When they fall apart
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart.

She could've gotten angry
And made me feel like a guilty child
But I realized that never was her style
I wanted her to hurt me
And not treat me like a friend
I wanted her to say "there'd be someday
I'd come crawling on my knees to ask her back again"
But she acted like a lady till the end
Oh, what a lady!

I thought that she'd break down
But she smiled at me and never made a sound
And I guess she understood in her way
Coz her silence told me everything she could not say
When they fall apart
There's no easy way to break
There's just no easy way
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart...

 


i've been watching this amazing reality show on tv lately. too bad i only learned about it and wasn't able to watch it from the very beginning. it's airing every wednesdays and thurdays at 9pm on starworld. i've always enjoyed watching reality shows but a rock reality show...man it's what i've been waiting for. last weeks performances ware absolutely fantastic! i really can't put to words what my eyes or my ears experienced. the line up included classics like Queen's "Bohemian Rhapsody", Elvis Prestley's "Suspicious Minds", The Rolling Stone's "You Can't Always Get What You Want", John Lennon's "Imagine", Paul McCartney's "Live And Let Die" and my favorite "Wish You Were Here" by Pink Floyd. what moved me were Jordis's version of "Imagine" & Marty's "Wish You Were Here". they both sang it beautifully that it made me cry. un feeling na wow hayup talaga tsong! specially when Marty sang "Wish You Were Here", i was practically sobbing by the end of the song. it was a very touching moment...so beautiful! definitely the best show i've seen so far. made me unleash the rockstar in me..haha! but it also made me more frustrated about singing!


Wish You Were Here

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change? And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears, wish you were here.

i'm so exhausted! sobra sakit na ng ulo ko with all these crap. aleks's dad recently emailed me..as if i care. he can do whatever he wants with his life and i couldn't care less. kaya lang i can't help but get affected in a negative way that is. siguro nga psychological na tong sakit ng ulo ko. nakakainis lang na parang wala talaga syang pakialam. with the way he'd emailed me parang kahapon lang kami huling nagkita at walang kung anumang nangyari. he didn't even bothered to ask how aleks is? pathetic!!! we still haven't talk personally so baka naman he'll be singing a different tune when we do, kaya lang i don't care anymore. sana nga he didn't made an effort na lang to contact me para hindi na nagulo yung buhay ko. yes i wanted my closure but now i realized what do i need it for? i'm doing good..i guess  :( nothing would change if he explains now. it wouldn't make any difference at all. what's done is done and i'm just not the kind of person who'll forgive and forget. siguro i could forget but i could never ever  forgive for what he's done. kahit siguro magpatiwakal sya sa harap ko it would never soften my heart...it would make us even though. sorry wala yata talaga akong masasabing maganda ngayon, nagiging pathetic na rin ako. haay, pootah sobra sakit ng ulo ko! i filed for leave on saturday matutulog ako for 3 days straight. wish ko lang!

 



Your a goddess! Forget angels, its all about you.
Angels serve god, right? So why not be a
goddess? Hold on there, girl, and easy with the
fame. A Goddess is absolutley the most
beautiful, powerful, and magic being alive
there is, but they can tend to be quite
obnoxious. Some goddesses go a little to far
with their power, and turn greedy and shallow.
Good ones are pure and full of life, and if on
earth, flowers sprout at their steps. Others,
decided to live in a palace in heaven, with
such beauty never knwon. They are very kind and
good leaders, but can tend to be a little lazy,
jelous, greedy, and obnoxious.

What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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broken - seether featuring amy lee

I wanted you to know
That I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain …away
I keep your photograph
And I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here....anymore
The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone ...away

You don't feel me here....anymore 

 

my last two days were so boring. i didn't do anything except sleep...which is good by the way. but i was planning to take aleks to the mall and eat at chef de angelo sana. the mere mention of the restaurant makes my mouth water...yum yum. too bad it rained non-stop for two days..bad trip! pero okay lang at least i was able to rest as in rest to the max talaga and nag-gamot ng tattoo.

consulted a derma last week because my tattoo developed rashes. i noticed the skin around my tattoo was so red at sobra sya kati like hell..promise! un feeling like the itch is inside my skin and when you scratch it, god it feels soooo good..literally titirik un mga mata mo sa sarap..hehe! i guess you got the point already! anyway, so i went to the derma kasi nga nabo-bother nako. i'm having these thoughts like baka sobra na syang na-infect at kaylangan ng putulin ang paa ko. well, worst case scenario na talaga to noh! this is like my third tattoo already and it's the first time i got this allergic reactions. i asked my artist what happened but he's as clueless as i am. so i've no choice but to go to an expert. the doctor said my skin developed allergic reactions to the ink. i asked her why now eh ang tagal ng may ink ng katawan ko. she said it's because i've had too much ink on the same area and my skin couldn't handle it anymore. she gave me a cream..not for free of course..hehe. i'll have to go back to her after a week to see if the cream worked, if not she'll have to give me something stronger and i assume more expensive..haay! so far di na sya ganun ka-red and thank god the itchiness is now tolerable..pwede ng dedmahin unlike before. what bothered me most is that the doctor said i could no longer add more tattoos. man, badtrip talaga! baka naman she meant lang on the same areas that i already have? i have to clear this with her when i go back. hindi pwedeeeh..hindi ito maaari..nooooooo!

oh and by the way i saw him again today. i almost didn't recognized him until we're practically face to face. napansin ko na lang that this guy's looking at me so nung halos magkaharap na kami...isang malaking HAAAH! siya pala un. as usual ang lola mo ay super sibangot at ang lolo mo naman ay ngingisi-ngisi na parang nakakaloko! ewan ko lang ha is it me ba or talagang ganun ang reaksyon nya? o baka naman napapraning lang ako..pero teka matagal nakong praning eh..haha! anyway, pwede naman kasing wala ng reaksyon eh diba bakit kaylangan ganun pa...hmp! nakakainis talaga...grrrr! and as usual parang wala lang uli as if hindi kami magkakilala. okay lang naman un mas maganda nga hindi na kami magkita uli para naman matahimik na uli buhay ko. kaya lang sobrang imposible naman yata nun since we're at the same ofc...same flr...same pantry..etc! wish ko lang he'll just go away and disappear forever!

for the meantime, i don't wanna think about him at lalo lang kukunot ang noo ko. kaylangan happy thoughts..happy thoughts..happy thoughts. besides, it's my restday na tomorrow so time to relax..yipee! what a stressful week this is..grabe ang calls 37 nako bago magcut-off ng 1pm eh hanggang 4:30 pa kaya ako. gasgas na naman ang tonsils ko! hindi kaya nagkapareho na ng timezone ang Pilipinas at ang U.S., tanong ko lang?

last week was so tiring for me. parang di rin ako nag-restday because i accompanied aleks to their school's foundation day. their section was one of the finalists for the field demonstration, they won the elimination for the whole grade1 last week. here's what happened:

i thought i'll finally have my much needed restday kasi feel ko i was so exhausted with my new shift. feeling ko newbie uli ako because of this new set of people around me. i miss my previous shiftmates, as in wala akong naging ka-shift sa kanila. no wonder mapipi ako nito because i'm not practising my communication skills hahaha! sobrang boring naman kasi or maybe i just need to give it more time...haaay!

anyway, i went with aleks to school along with my mom. may parade sila with other finalist for the field demo, complete custumes and all. by the way, aleks's on ati-atihan custume since their theme is native dances. the parade was exhausting for me because of the long walk but aleks seems to be enjoying every moment of it. after the parade they had their practice inside their classroom and as much as i would like to be the stage mom that i am, no parents were allowed inside. so my mom and i just went downstairs to watch for the elimations of the high school level. it was actually fun watching them. it brought memories of my own high school days. we went straight home after their practice because we have to be at school super early the next day for the competition.

we were at school at around 6am because the kids' face needs to be fainted to make their ati-atihan custume complete. they were so cute in their custumes kahit hindi mo sila makilala because of their face paint. i had a hard time looking for aleks if i need to take her picture during their dance. all of them practically looked the same. they only won 2nd place but it's okay, it's more than enough that the kids had so much fun. the results were out at around 10am but we need to go back 1:30pm to watch a show at the auditorium. well, being the good mom that i am we didn't go back..hehe! it was a lion king show and aleks insisted that we go and watch. i bribed her that we just go to sm and let her ride on the carousel instead. we had lunch at mcdonald's syempre happy meals for the toys, cutie eh hello kittys uli. one toy na lang complete na namin. then we bought her school stuff and did some grocery for her school baon. i have to remind myself next time not to bring her along when i do my groceries, i end up buying mosty junk foods kasi. we went home around 3pm. by 5am i told her we should take a nap because we woke up early and i'm super sleepy na. we ended up sleeping the whole night instead. i woke up just in time to prepare for work the other day.